My Second Vaccination Kicked My Butt, But It Was Worth It
It was an odd feeling. Sitting in the waiting area of the clinic where I had just received my second shot of the Moderna vaccine. There were several friends there because there had been a phone chain when a friend who worked there scrambled to fill some vaccine slots at the last minute.
We stopped and looked at each other as we waited to see if there was an allergic reaction immediately after the stab. An old friend and former bandmate looked at me and said, ‘we can hang out in a few weeks’. That hit me. I had not seen him and his wife (also a bandmate) in a year.
I had no reaction to the first dose other than a sore arm. So I expected a more severe reaction to the second. And it knocked me out for 24 hours. That sucked but it was a small price to pay.
My worldview changed
It’s a little hard to articulate, but something fundamental changed in my view of the future. I saw an opening, a light, the possibility of actually getting past this thing on at least some level.
I never felt I would get Covid, which seems a delusional attitude in light of the reality. Nevertheless I wore my mask, distanced, washed my hands, etc. And I locked down with a friend. But as the year progressed friends got sick, one was intubated (she survived but it happened very recently and treatment is much better now), and reality became more…real. This thing is horrible.
So, it seems I was carrying some stress inside, like most of us. Some of this was dissipated by receiving the vaccine. Which is why I am angry at those whose willful ignorance results in mass stupidity like states opening everything up and 50% of Republicans refusing to take a harmless vaccine or wear masks, actions which will save the lives of others. It is absolutely insane.
Precautions are as much for others as for yourself
Before I unexpectedly got a vaccine appointment, I was asked by a friend if I was aggressively pursuing an appointment. I said no because though I’m 65, I have no underlying conditions and I felt there were those at the front lines, and those with compromised health, who needed it more than me. Very altruistic of me. [Cynicism.]
But once I got vaccinated, I felt I was not part of the problem but now part of the solution, in my own small way. The future is a little brighter. Wear a mask, socially distance, get vaccinated. It’s not a big ask and your life may feel just a little brighter. Mine does.